It was 11pm . Young night. We're driving back to Hillcity from Johnny's. Ayen and Sarah, two best friend. And me; the driver.
What do we talk about? All seem so new yet its hard to recollect. Maybe we're so absorbed.I love how it goes , that's what i remembered. In Ipoh's glittering night. Winter Melon tea from 7eleven. Sarah's chocolate, Ayen's cigarette. Singing the old songs, is it Wings or May? Might be a different band. The night is cool, but not cool enough for chilling out in Denaina's for a hot Teh Tarik. Everybody's seem stuffed already. A lot.
Somebody says about Jay's dating with her girlfriend in South China Sea, with licence from Klang Beach Club. And they say he wants to meet the Agong tomorrow. And Jay's going to rob another bank soon. The Ramblers. Nobody cares who says right anyway. But the laughters and giggles are still there.
"Where do you want to hang out tomorrow?" Ayen asks. I'm not quite sure , but Ngah wants to eat wantan mee. He's absolutely sure about what he wants ; in food. "Then go to Hollywood" thats what ive heard from him. Planet Hollywood you mean? "Haha, no. Holiwud Restaurant" he spells it out. Ahhh ok, seriously ive never heard it, dont mentioned it, Ipoh isnt really nice to me in terms of secret treasure cove. "You have all night?" Sure, its still young. "Then lets go". And we found it, its looks like a typical apek eateries. Closed already, no wonder . Its 12.30am. You sure its halal? Yah, all Malays also eat there. If not, JAKIM will inform us already. Okay, looks cool enough. Wantan mee and Chou Cheong Fun. Authentic one.
Wait... how about Nasi Wongge? Yeah ive promised Ngah to bring him there ... That too .
lol.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Ternyata Indah - Estrella
Ku lihat dia
Pandangan pertama
Ternyata indah
Senyuman liriknya
Ku ingin dia
Saat pertama
Berjumpa dengannya
Membuat aku gelisah
Waktu ku berlalu
Hari demi hari
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi
Ku ingin dia
Saat pertama
Berjumpa dengannya
Membuat aku gelisah
Waktu ku berlalu
Hari demi hari
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi
Hatiku dambakannya
Untuk bercinta lagi
I wake up quite late today and I found myself listening to this song. Sitting on the verandah, with a mild tea and waiting everyone else to get up (its a free Thursday, all aircraft already exceed 100 hours and have been sent away to maintained) , watching the view of Gunung Rapat. One of the best view from my apartment ;)
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
face to face
I BELEIVE I LEARNT SOMETHING TODAY.JUST KEEP ON LOVING IN EVERY POSSIBLE WAY.AND KEEP GIVING AND NEVER ASK FOR RETURN.
Thursday, January 22, 2009
My Goal for Today.
By evening of 5 p.m. today, I already passed my first solo circulating the circuit with one landing. Amin.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Stay
Gladethe only person that can stop you is yourself, exactly.
dont let your cynical self get you.
stay alive.
dont let your cynical self get you.
stay alive.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Friday, January 16, 2009
Saturday, 3rd trial.
Glade,
Lets make all the things had happened flows out of a deep, long sleep. When you wake up, you only remember what you need to remember.
You know what you need.
Lets make all the things had happened flows out of a deep, long sleep. When you wake up, you only remember what you need to remember.
You know what you need.
Here
(10) Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? they encountered suffering and adversity, and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: "When (will come) the help of Allah." Ah! Verily, the help of Allah is (always) near! ( سورة البقرة , Al-Baqara, Chapter #2, Verse #214)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Interview with Mr Tiger
1. First grade teacher's name:
Salmah
2. Last word(s) you said:
Aha, test …
3. Last song you sang:
Milk and toast and honey by Roxette. I love sweet morning songs. Makes you feel happier despite the ever increasing workload at the bedside. (Its hard to left these in the college , I know duh..)
4. Last person you hugged:
Myself (some nervous breakdown and theres no one around to hug me..)
5. Last thing you laughed at:
My old diary entries (muahaha pathetic..) then the message from Amirul, he’s really a cracker! Finally the Ghosttown of Refrigerator District; need to buy some groceries .
6. At my brothers wedding:
I sang all along (the karaoke is mine!)
Salmah
2. Last word(s) you said:
Aha, test …
3. Last song you sang:
Milk and toast and honey by Roxette. I love sweet morning songs. Makes you feel happier despite the ever increasing workload at the bedside. (Its hard to left these in the college , I know duh..)
4. Last person you hugged:
Myself (some nervous breakdown and theres no one around to hug me..)
5. Last thing you laughed at:
My old diary entries (muahaha pathetic..) then the message from Amirul, he’s really a cracker! Finally the Ghosttown of Refrigerator District; need to buy some groceries .
6. At my brothers wedding:
I sang all along (the karaoke is mine!)
7. What's in your CD player:
Jason Mraz , the Blisscatcher
Jason Mraz , the Blisscatcher
8. What's under your bed:
Books that fell off from the bed (hmm let see… The Black Book- Orhan Pamuk, Wild Mind – Natalie Goldberg)
9. What time did you wake up today:
1.32pm *blushes* cmon its my free day. But usually if I’m scheduled for flight, I wake up at 4.30am. *ehem*
10. Current taste:
flavourful cuisine, spicy and wild! The Thailand’s Tom Yam, Malaysian’s Laksa, Mee Rebus, Singapore’s Yong Tau Foo, Indonesia’s Nasi Ambang, Bakso, the list is endless.
11. Current hair:
shoulder length and layered ends. Hair parted sideways.
12. Current annoyance:
people who eats with his/her mouth open( the sound is unbearable)
The sounds of my own footstep when I’m walking with that naughty brown Mary Jane.
When I forget what to do in the cockpit.
13. Current hate:
People who don’t smile at all cost.
People who judge too soon.
14. Current favorite article of clothing:
French couture
Japanese Lolita
Trendy yet simple and comfortable, just like urban culture.
15. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex:
Symmetrical jaw…mmm
16. Favorite place to be:
in the glade! Feeling the running river..
17. Least favorite place:
where most toxic people are
18. If you could play an instrument what would it be:
Violin
acoustic guitar!
19. Current favorite word:
LOLOLOLOLOLOL and ahaks…
20. Favorite book:
The Last Great Dance on Earth by Sandra Gulland, Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom, The Quran, there’s a LOT to list it here.
21. Favorite season:
Rainy Season?
22. Favorite day:
Friday. The freedom day.
23. Where do you want to go:
grab a Vespa and discovering the whole town!
24. What is your career going to be:
Pilot or maybe Instructor Pilot
25. How many kids do you want:
2 (twin, girls) So sweet to have two little princess by my side.
26. What kind of car will you have when u grow up?
Honda City. Classy (but if im richer I’ll go for Aston Martin :P)
27. Have you ever said "I love you" and meant it?
Certainly
28. Have you ever gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish etc?
yea and he always won. Last time with a kitten and I ended up being given a piercing warning look by his mother. Oooo scary…
29. Have you ever been to NY?
No
30. Have you ever been to Hawaii?
No
31. Have you ever been to Mexico?
No
32. Have you ever been to Canada?
No
34. Have you ever dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?
Yea, one of them when I ate all the sushi party pack by myself in a dream and it happened the next day. Oops.
35. Have you ever wanted to be the opposite sex?
Once or twice . When the control handle in Cirrus SR20 is darn heavy.
36. Have you ever had an imaginary friend?
A lot! (uhh.. this is getting more embarrassing)
37. Have you ever gotten sick:
A LOT , name it . Ive been admitted to hospital 4 times…
flavourful cuisine, spicy and wild! The Thailand’s Tom Yam, Malaysian’s Laksa, Mee Rebus, Singapore’s Yong Tau Foo, Indonesia’s Nasi Ambang, Bakso, the list is endless.
11. Current hair:
shoulder length and layered ends. Hair parted sideways.
12. Current annoyance:
people who eats with his/her mouth open( the sound is unbearable)
The sounds of my own footstep when I’m walking with that naughty brown Mary Jane.
When I forget what to do in the cockpit.
13. Current hate:
People who don’t smile at all cost.
People who judge too soon.
14. Current favorite article of clothing:
French couture
Japanese Lolita
Trendy yet simple and comfortable, just like urban culture.
15. Favorite physical feature(s) of the opposite sex:
Symmetrical jaw…mmm
16. Favorite place to be:
in the glade! Feeling the running river..
17. Least favorite place:
where most toxic people are
18. If you could play an instrument what would it be:
Violin
acoustic guitar!
19. Current favorite word:
LOLOLOLOLOLOL and ahaks…
20. Favorite book:
The Last Great Dance on Earth by Sandra Gulland, Five People You Meet In Heaven by Mitch Albom, The Quran, there’s a LOT to list it here.
21. Favorite season:
Rainy Season?
22. Favorite day:
Friday. The freedom day.
23. Where do you want to go:
grab a Vespa and discovering the whole town!
24. What is your career going to be:
Pilot or maybe Instructor Pilot
25. How many kids do you want:
2 (twin, girls) So sweet to have two little princess by my side.
26. What kind of car will you have when u grow up?
Honda City. Classy (but if im richer I’ll go for Aston Martin :P)
27. Have you ever said "I love you" and meant it?
Certainly
28. Have you ever gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish etc?
yea and he always won. Last time with a kitten and I ended up being given a piercing warning look by his mother. Oooo scary…
29. Have you ever been to NY?
No
30. Have you ever been to Hawaii?
No
31. Have you ever been to Mexico?
No
32. Have you ever been to Canada?
No
34. Have you ever dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?
Yea, one of them when I ate all the sushi party pack by myself in a dream and it happened the next day. Oops.
35. Have you ever wanted to be the opposite sex?
Once or twice . When the control handle in Cirrus SR20 is darn heavy.
36. Have you ever had an imaginary friend?
A lot! (uhh.. this is getting more embarrassing)
37. Have you ever gotten sick:
A LOT , name it . Ive been admitted to hospital 4 times…
38. Have you ever said "I love you": yes
39. Have you ever wanted to tell someone you loved them:
Many times.
46. Do you have a crush on someone?
Many times ended up lonely.
48. What is the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning?
Take a deep breath, hug pillow tight.
49. Future daughters name(s):
Ariana/Yusfina
50. Future sons name(s):
Adam
51. If you could have any job you wanted what would it be?
My job : Pilot
52. Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrous:
Righty
53. Do you do drugs?
Is prozac counts? I was …ahhh *slumps dreamily on the floor*
39. Have you ever wanted to tell someone you loved them:
Many times.
46. Do you have a crush on someone?
Many times ended up lonely.
48. What is the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning?
Take a deep breath, hug pillow tight.
49. Future daughters name(s):
Ariana/Yusfina
50. Future sons name(s):
Adam
51. If you could have any job you wanted what would it be?
My job : Pilot
52. Are you a lefty, righty, or ambidextrous:
Righty
53. Do you do drugs?
Is prozac counts? I was …ahhh *slumps dreamily on the floor*
54. What kind of shampoo/conditioner do you use?
Pantene(cant live without)
55. What clothes do you sleep in?
Whatever clothes I wear before sleep.Lol! ( I don’t believe in pyjamas)
56. Who was the last person who called you?
Mom (I’ll be back next weekend )
57. Where do you want to get married?
On a wooden altar, surrounded by tropical gardens…
58. If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?
Clumsiness, Ignorance
59. Are you timely or always late?
Depend on how in trouble I am if I am late
60. Do you have a job?
As a pilot trainee in Ipoh. Getting to fly makes my day now J
61. Do you like being around people?
Fun people yea. Toxic people yuck.
63. Want someone you don't have right now?
My best friend who is 200km away.
64. Are you lonely right now?
Quite yea.
67. What is your middle name?
Nabilah ( but most call it G.Lo)
How would you describe yourself in 5 words?
Honest, sensitive, original, deep, crazy
Have you ever had a moment that you knew what would happen next?
Sometimes , when a lucky draw contest, I know my name wouldn’t be mentioned.
How would a perfect date for you look like, where would you go?
Perfect is being honest and being himself although he is not perfect. Go to the his secret place and conversation for hours…
If you knew the world would be gone after tomorrow, what would you do tomorrow?
Laying to the green grass, staring at the blue sky and enjoying the wind.
What if you got stranded on an island all alone, what would you want to have with you?
My faith, my memories.
What do you love more, watching a sunrise or a sunset?
Sunrise with a hint of smell of the soil coming up from the earth.
Are you more a morning person or a night person?
If its holiday night person. If its College morning person
What would you rather get from the one you love, something expensive like a car or jewellery or a written poem?
A written poem
What makes your heart beat faster?
Call me lame, Im so into Love.
What takes your breath away?
Originality and honesty.
What makes you smile?
Watching Little Miss Sunshine over and over.
If you can choose one word to be written on your tombstone what would it be?
Serenity
If you can be an animal what would you choose?
Kitty
My best friend who is 200km away.
64. Are you lonely right now?
Quite yea.
67. What is your middle name?
Nabilah ( but most call it G.Lo)
How would you describe yourself in 5 words?
Honest, sensitive, original, deep, crazy
Have you ever had a moment that you knew what would happen next?
Sometimes , when a lucky draw contest, I know my name wouldn’t be mentioned.
How would a perfect date for you look like, where would you go?
Perfect is being honest and being himself although he is not perfect. Go to the his secret place and conversation for hours…
If you knew the world would be gone after tomorrow, what would you do tomorrow?
Laying to the green grass, staring at the blue sky and enjoying the wind.
What if you got stranded on an island all alone, what would you want to have with you?
My faith, my memories.
What do you love more, watching a sunrise or a sunset?
Sunrise with a hint of smell of the soil coming up from the earth.
Are you more a morning person or a night person?
If its holiday night person. If its College morning person
What would you rather get from the one you love, something expensive like a car or jewellery or a written poem?
A written poem
What makes your heart beat faster?
Call me lame, Im so into Love.
What takes your breath away?
Originality and honesty.
What makes you smile?
Watching Little Miss Sunshine over and over.
If you can choose one word to be written on your tombstone what would it be?
Serenity
If you can be an animal what would you choose?
Kitty
If you want to write a book, what is the title?
You Found Me.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Vindicable measure in a flash
I was nowhere. I was so devastated with foul mark for my exams. At that time, it was dawn, before praying for Subuh, after taking cold bath. I felt so bad, so frustrated , so lost. I believe God is helping me but somehow I need some strenght to keep me in track. I lay on the bed with towel still wrapped around my hips. My blood ran slow and steady but I felt it ran like jolts of thunder and my breathing is too fast. I cant remember why I closed my eyes but this very moment really brought a big change in me:
It was dark. I cant think of anything. My mind is emptyafter tired thinking numerous problems.
"God is here to help you, no matter what. Help will come in second and you will not realize when it arrives. He is the most knowledgeable of all." A quote that sounds familiar. Ah, the Qur'an.
Whatever it is, i suddenly did something that i used to think its overrated - Praying without judgement or pre-assumption. Just pray.
I opened my eyes slowly to face the world again, and my eyes directly hit a simple phrase scribbled on the wall - NEVER LET THE SPIRIT DIE.
It was one of the biggest wonder of my life. Although it was simple and nobody knows, it makes me believe that u dont have to understand rocket science or getting a doctorate in any field of studies to be contented in life.
Actually this happened 4 years ago. And ive already encountered other simple yet significant things around my daily life that i wish to write it all here. So i will not forget it anymore.
I dont believe the most incredible stories in the world belongs to the most adventurous one, or made by the most influential people. But simple people like us. Who gone through daily life as a beautiful journey of its own. And who knows that what they have right now is much much more precious than things they long for. They are the most richest and contented person on earth.
It was dark. I cant think of anything. My mind is emptyafter tired thinking numerous problems.
"God is here to help you, no matter what. Help will come in second and you will not realize when it arrives. He is the most knowledgeable of all." A quote that sounds familiar. Ah, the Qur'an.
Whatever it is, i suddenly did something that i used to think its overrated - Praying without judgement or pre-assumption. Just pray.
I opened my eyes slowly to face the world again, and my eyes directly hit a simple phrase scribbled on the wall - NEVER LET THE SPIRIT DIE.
It was one of the biggest wonder of my life. Although it was simple and nobody knows, it makes me believe that u dont have to understand rocket science or getting a doctorate in any field of studies to be contented in life.
Actually this happened 4 years ago. And ive already encountered other simple yet significant things around my daily life that i wish to write it all here. So i will not forget it anymore.
I dont believe the most incredible stories in the world belongs to the most adventurous one, or made by the most influential people. But simple people like us. Who gone through daily life as a beautiful journey of its own. And who knows that what they have right now is much much more precious than things they long for. They are the most richest and contented person on earth.
The Joy Of Life
Wonderful I thought. I always trying to express my thoughts somewhere. Needless to say, I'm a human. Human needs enrichments. Experience is one of them.
I believe in God. The one and only God. I always searching for Him. Eventough I know he always beside me, sometimes the heart is too blind to see unless you understand how the situation works and u will realize it is more than wonders. And if u try not to understand it, somehow you are too absorbed to the world life, in a flick of eye you can be lost. Astrayed from tracks.
Ive been felt so blessed. And Ive been felt so cursed. All of this happened so fast. Untill it is too bad, I try to reoder the situation, but it is not easy. I need to sacrifice my all. My ALL. But now, I'm rebuilding myself back, slowly. And I hope this will not stop halfway.
I want to LOVE Him more than anything else.
I want to MISS Him more than any sweet memories.
I want , because this way,
I feel better
I live better
I smile better
I cry better
I believe in God. The one and only God. I always searching for Him. Eventough I know he always beside me, sometimes the heart is too blind to see unless you understand how the situation works and u will realize it is more than wonders. And if u try not to understand it, somehow you are too absorbed to the world life, in a flick of eye you can be lost. Astrayed from tracks.
Ive been felt so blessed. And Ive been felt so cursed. All of this happened so fast. Untill it is too bad, I try to reoder the situation, but it is not easy. I need to sacrifice my all. My ALL. But now, I'm rebuilding myself back, slowly. And I hope this will not stop halfway.
I want to LOVE Him more than anything else.
I want to MISS Him more than any sweet memories.
I want , because this way,
I feel better
I live better
I smile better
I cry better
What Costwolds means to me.
Actually Costwold doesnt even have any connection with me.
But ive made a book out of it.
A scrapbook.
Eventough inside i dedicate most of the entries is about Costwold and all its homes, shops, hotels, and farms; it actually reflects myself. That i made the book because i want to have something which i feel like i belong. And i dont think Costwold is where i belong (or where i wish i do belong) Im attracted more to its serenity and tranquility. Im attracted more to the feeling when i get when my hands strolling along the endless rowns of grains billowing around, the feeling of summer rays pours to my face , and when i see the horizon of the fields breaking out silver linings in between.
And at the end of the book I pasted a pagewide picture of the ever violet Saffron plantation in Costwold , and a cutted sketch of a girl i drew myself. Feels better.
I'm still holding on eventough I'm crying hard.
Everytime whenever I put my hopes on something, and it falls apart, despite all thrives and energy i put on it, i will of course start to feel very fragile , alone and in need of support. Tears starts to fall and lips starts to get brittle because of the inevitable need for the teeth to clung on something. And i starts to fall down on my knees.
I've been so useless before and i never want to be back to that situation again as far as what it shows me. All I want is one hands that takes me back from the floor saying "Here, ive got you. Hold me tight because I'm trying too".
Then i realize , its no stranger. Its my own heart. Calling me home.
I've been so useless before and i never want to be back to that situation again as far as what it shows me. All I want is one hands that takes me back from the floor saying "Here, ive got you. Hold me tight because I'm trying too".
Then i realize , its no stranger. Its my own heart. Calling me home.
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
5 things im going to do before i die:
1. Buying a light aircraft and fly everywhere i want to go (includes a camera! to take pics)
2. Buy The Troika in KL centre and invest..
3. Try bungee jumping, skydiving , and mountain climbing at least. (yes - AND)
4. Make one song i sing myslef and make a personal video for it.
5. Travel to every continent ( includes Antartica)
The list might expands soon :) hihi
1. Buying a light aircraft and fly everywhere i want to go (includes a camera! to take pics)
2. Buy The Troika in KL centre and invest..
3. Try bungee jumping, skydiving , and mountain climbing at least. (yes - AND)
4. Make one song i sing myslef and make a personal video for it.
5. Travel to every continent ( includes Antartica)
The list might expands soon :) hihi
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