I.am.here

Please forgive everything that I've ever done.

Come back.

I've just realized that I already have what I need. That is Allah.

What this need is for?
To go on a journey.

Now,
I realize I can pursue what I want with the help of my need
with the right way.

God already gave us what we need , and we are going through the journey to pursue what we want. It can be serenity, happiness, or anything that makes you complete.

NEED makes us living.
WANTS makes us complete.

What do I want. I want to be happy. And its a constant search . But from what i observe, how unreal it is, it is possible to become eternal. Undisruptable.

I know im in a phase of finding myself. Again.
I did found myself years ago. But environment changes me. And to find myself back, I need to come back.

Come back home.

Aromatheraphy.

3 years ago i wuld never imagine myself ...

hitting the shelves of an AROMATHERAPHY shop scrambling for numerous of candle oils to burn in my room.

I used to think i dont need extra perfumes as if my life isnt spiceful enough.

But..

I take back my word hehe...

The more spiceful your life get the more spiceful should your room be filled with.

Thats obviously a worst analogy i ever made but I dont seem to care.

I'm not my self of 3 years ago who is so ambitious and doesnt even care how her room smells like as long as she gets 4.00 CGPA in her semester exam.

Thats so selfish to myself.

I have spend more than 15 years to be too selfish to hear what myself have to listen, and now im listening.

Guess what ,
she says: "Green Tea candle oil last time he gave you smells sooooo sweet. Its finishing and me couldnt afford to forget that smell."
*Hugs lovingly my other self , persuading me to buy one*

my other self: "Ahaha, okay, just because your so cuddly today..."

The shop is called Wooden Cabin,

Now I am enlighten to understand why aromatheraputic oil exist in this world and getting popular here.

Green Tea smell so oriental as if youre in a Japanese waterfall.

Rosemary feels so English it reminds me of Aunt Rose who tends to filled her house with English Rose perfume exclusively bought from UK herself ... well...no comment.

And Cinnamon just like morning toast... every morning , to start anew.

I know Im crazy enough to go to Greentown Mall to buy the oil again, but dragging Fiza along...? Hehehe Fiza I loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee you so much. I'll treat you for Paintball then OK? As long as you pay your entrance yourself . Haahahahaha.

Avoiding Toxic

Im taking the toxic people out of my life!!!!
I DONT WANT TO BE LIKE YOU!

Im not gonna turn out to be like one of them.

And i will learn how to be happy, eventough it might not come easily for me. Because I will get it and NO ONE

NO ONE

can ever stop me.